Valentine's Day

I'm not sure how to begin this piece of prose. All I can tell you is this floor I'm curled up on is the least bit comfortable. My feet are sliding constantly on one another-restless. Restless and uncomfortable...AKA the description of my every waking moment for the past three weeks.
Perhaps I should fill you in.
Just in time for Valentine's Day season to hit it's peak, my sweetheart decided to unexpectedly 'hit the road'. Saving you from the messy details of a high school break-up, just know how truly devastating that can be especially when it's not at all what you wanted. So, here I am taking the hardest semester of my high school career, struggling through a heart wrenching break-up, sitting on the floor in my bedroom wrapped in his sweat shirt. And through all these tears, all I want to do is sit there alone and think..and think.
I'm sitting here thinking about how angry I am at him for leaving me, how much I hate that empty promise he gave me that everything would work out. I think about how stressful school is, how terrible I'm doing in my chemistry class. But, most of all? I think about how sickening it is that I can't go anywhere that isn't a constant reminder that Valentine's Day is coming and I now have no one to be my valentine. It's like going through every day with flashing neon signs that say...
"No guy likes you!"
"No guy thinks you're pretty!"
"No guy thinks you're some one special!"
"No guy cares about..you!"
And, boy did I devour those messages. I read them, I listened to them. I let them seep into my mind and heart until I believed them all one by one. Just like many many girls do-I let those sign push me in to the Worthless Washing Machine where I let those statements rinse on me over and over again.
Quite frankly, I'm tired of being drenched in these signs. But, just how can I stop listening? How can I fix the damage that is done?
Like magic, my ears tuned into the radio. After listening for a few moments, my answer hit me with the force of a speeding train. BAM! I heard the line "Take this world, give me Jesus...". Before I had time to redirect my thoughts, the phrase sounded again. "Take this world, give me Jesus..." My thoughts fireworked into a magnificent revolution.
No matter what places, people, opportunities this world has to offer, it does not house my Valentine. You see, my valentine is so big His sheer size is beyond anything my  tiny little brain can ever fathom. My Valentine made this world for me and His name is Jesus.
It was like I could feel His tender hands wrap around my face as he whispered, "Why are you crying? Don't you know how much I love you? Do you not see how beautiful you are because I made you in My own image? You are My special child. I am always with you."
Talk about one amazing Valentine's message.
But what does this mean for you? To all of you who are searching and are listening to those flashing neon signs, I know it's hard not to listen but listen instead to the words of that song. "Take this world, give me Jesus!!!" Then, just like He did for me, Jesus will remind you that He is your Valentine from now until eternity. The realization is calming, I'm not restless resting in the peace and joy of his never ending promise to love me... always.
Happy Valentine's Day!